updatezzz

So we found Pinina. She ended up being gone for a total of 12 days. She crossed Indian Head Highway and found our neighborhood. Bitch is beast. I'm happy. She's safe and back to the usual.

For example:

SLEEP

In other words, i'm back from VA. Beach. I think you can tell how it went:

SLEEP pt2

SCUBA DIVING w/MAC (lol at my right eye)

And now I'm back at home...

...TAN AS SHIT...

sadtown.

sorry i never finished the house sitting adventures. everything went fine on that front, if your wondering...

anyway. the real reason why i'm here writing is simply to get my emotions off my chest. so here goes:

losing one of my dogs is defiantly on my top 5 worst fears. and yet, here i am confronted with that very fear now. them dying, i used to think could be in that same category, but now that i am pretty much living my nightmare, i can say with every fiber of certainty that it is not the same. if one of them is dead, i know he/she is just that-dead, not out there roaming around lost somewhere and afraid. but she's lost. since this time yesterday around my brother's school. it's kinda like a movie the way my mom explained it. she was scared of the noise from the marching band and hopped in the back of the car and my mom put the window up a little. she got distracted for a minute and when she looked back, the window was halfway down and pinina (my dog) was gone. she searched for two hours, and NO ONE saw ANYTHING. it's like she just disappeared into thin air. my little baby is still no where to be found. we live too far from the school for her to wander her way back. and i simply can't stand the sad sad look balto (my other dog) gives me whenever we walk in the door with no pinina. he sits in front of the door sometimes, just looking out the window. he's just mopey in general. i don't blame him. we're all pretty tense in the house. some of us snapping randomly at each other. we don't mean too, and we're never like this. it's awful. but i can only be optimistic. right??? well off to search now. hope i come bearing good news next time i write.